For a few days, I have been so upset I wasn’t sure what to write about. My mind has been consumed with the past, and I decided instead of ignoring it, I will give the past its final goodbye. I want to say horrible things, and make the past cry as I have been, but that’s not who I am. I sobbed in my mother’s arms when I found out, and that’s okay. I’m human. I have been single out of respect, and now it’s been tainted, so I’ve given myself permission to go out and live life again.
I came here to work on myself in hopes the past would change, and yet I am moving forward, and the past is repeating a cycle. Sometimes things are better left from a distance. So instead of wishing everyone from last year a harmful end, I’ll say this:
I hope you grow; you need it more than I do.
I hope you find better values because you don’t have that much longer to figure it out.
I hope you all remain in good health and work every day to better yourself.
One day I hope you have the courage to admit you were wrong because I have admitted it several times over.
Lastly, I hope you figure out, even if you seem honest if you’re not internally honest, there is no point to your words or promises.
Remember, empty promises are lies too. Empty promises are what forces someone to take a way out, you can promise the world, but if there is no substance, they will always leave. That is an abusive cycle to put yourself through. So, this is my final goodbye; I will no longer wait for the past to show up at my house, in hopes of a magical moment where everything was worth the pain.
I will go out, I will be better than I was, I will be who I am meant to be, and I will be happier than you could imagine.
To new beginnings.